Dear Justin,
It has been almost five years since I have been a fan of your music. It has been five years since I have been supporting you, and it has been five years since I have loved you, more than an artist- as a human being.
Through the years, I have watched you struggle to achieve your dreams. I watched you go from station to radio station, with your guitar, performing. I watched you do small gigs, then they began to get bigger and then I was still there when you released album after album. You went on tours, you visited new places, you saw new people, new cultures, met your fans. I am sure many of us have great memories to share about you and your music.
I don't have words to really express how much you have influenced me as a person. I have been through a pretty dominating phase of depression in the past three years. While many people don't like to talk about such personal issues so openly, I wanted to share mine with you, in hopes that you will read this and get to know how amazing you are and that you should NEVER EVER doubt yourself.
There have been times in our lives, when we have all doubted ourselves. For me, it went from doubting myself to being uncomfortable in my own skin to down right self- hate. This led to a strong wave of self destruction. My doctors and psychiatrist would only tell me one thing : I needed will power, some sort of motivation to keep going. Unless I tried myself, I would never be able to get over my misery and see the world in a positive light.
Earlier this year, I came to know how you had gone through depression yourself, And despite the fact that our circumstances are so different. I couldn't help respect you more for being so honest. I saw myself in your eyes. The sadness, the constant raging conflict and recklessness in your eyes beckoned to me, At that time, I was afraid for myself. Why? Because that is when I realized how truly alone I was.
You, on the other hand, had so many people to look after you, care for you, and worry about you. So many people love you. And would do anything for you, I knew then, you would be just fine. I was assured by the amount of love and adoration I saw around me for you and your music. Over the years, we have become like a global family. You work so hard to bring us good music, and we work just as hard to make sure you're number 1!
When your single came out earlier , I was truly ecstatic and after a long time felt happy. Because your music is my favorite music, no questions. I find solace and escape from my problems and issues by listening to your voice. It may seem silly to many people, but everyone has their own way of dealing with the things that trouble them. My way happens to be through you. And for that I am eternally grateful. So thank you. Thank you for existing. Thank you Scooter for discovering what an amazing talent you are and thank you again Justin, for doing what you do. Because it makes me happy. It may not make a difference to you, but to me.. it does. It gets me through those nights when I'm a hairsbreadth away from snapping. Dramatic? I would say take a walk in my shoes.
Lastly, before I end this sappy monologue (I am damn sure this will never reach you) I would like to say, I will probably never get to see you perform live, or meet you but I want you to know that I love you & I respect you all that much more. And I will support you. May God bless you and bestow his blessing upon you.
Lots of Love,
Rose (@jbiebxrose) xx
